This blog is dedicated to a God that has never let me go and to the most amazing Spiritual Father a girl could have (Michael Welchert)
For the last 6 years God has been radically healing my heart. I was a complete emotional mess when I started on this amazing journey 6 years ago. When I was introduced to the father heart of God it completely changed my life. Never in my life had I experienced such compassion, love, faithfullness, and gentleness. If there is one thing I have learned to love about God is how gentle he is. He is tough when he needs to be but he knows just how to speak to my heart and love on me. He is truly the love of my life. I can't even put into to words the amazing way he has spoken to my heart and how patient he has been with me.
One of the greatest gifts my Lord has given me comes in the form of another person. Michael Welchert is one of greatest men I have ever known. He saw me at my rock bottom. When I first came to his office I was a pothetic mess. At that point I was planning my suicide and I hated life. Before I left his office the first time he had told he was proud of me and that as a father he loved me. Something about him was so genuine and i knew he meant it. The truth is that at that point there wasnt much there to love but he saw me for what I could be not for what i was.
I have always been that person that is classified as "needy". Until recently I realized I am not that person anymore. Years ago God convicted me of being what I call an "emotional whore". I would give my heart to anyone because I just wanted to be loved. The concept of "Guarding your Heart" was non-exsistant in my universe. It wasnt until this year that I saw a diffrence. God used Pastor Michael to heal a place in my heart that i never thought would be healed. I always thought i would be emotionally needy. For the first time in 10 years or more I genuinely trusted a man again besides God. He became my spiritual daddy and God has used him to heal my heart in such a remarkable way. He is always there to encourage me, tell me he's proud of me, and call me a princess or tink (i can't tell you how important those nicknames are to me). God used him and continues to use him to build my self confidence.
Now instead of being ready and willing in a moments notice to give my heart away to just anybody. I have come to realize how important my heart is. how it belongs to God and how it is to be treasured. It's important to love everybody but you can't give your heart away to people like it's a piece of bread. For the first time in my life I feel comfortable to be myself and I feel my heart is valueable. God gave me the most amazing mentor and spiritual daddy in Pastor Michael. He calls me on my crap, loves me, encourages me, and for the first time in a decade Im not afraid of a man who means a lot to me abandoning me. For anyone who knows me this is so huge.
(Yoda, Pastor Micahel, Papa Welchert) - I will never be able to express the love I have for you in my heart. You are the greatest man I know and I love you so much!!! Thank You for taking a chance on me and for sticking by me. You have been God with skin on to me and that has healed me in ways I never thought possible. Thank You for being my mentor!!! I hope I always make you proud!!! The mark you have left upon my heart is one I will never forget!!! Thank You for being a guardian for all of us that were left behind!!! You are defiantly a fisher of hearts and souls of young people needing a spiritual father. You are my hero!!! Because of you I finally am able to live up to the meaning of my name "The Noble One"
I love you Yoda
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